Big Gaps and Mental Breakdowns

It's been awhile since I posted.

Sorry.

This has been the most difficult quarter of school I have ever been lucky to survive. It's like I woke up three weeks ago and said to myself, "Hey, Stephanie, remember that whole grad school thing? Yeah, so that didn't stop while you were sulking for the last two months."

Don't get me wrong, I know my sulking was more than warranted, it was just not as productive to completing a successful quarter as, you know, paying attention.

I've been thinking about Bilbo Baggins a lot lately. Not just because he's a total badass and he looks a tiny bit like Squeak Scolari, but he said something in The Fellowship of the Ring that has been sticking in my head lately. At one point Bilbo talks about feeling like butter spread over too much bread.

I hear ya, hobbit.

Between classes, homework, facebooking, internship, hedgehog maintenance, actually spending time with the people I love, work, sleeping, eating poorly, and Simpsons quoting I find little time to simply breathe.

Or clean my house.

Seriously, it's like a tiny pine tree exploded in here.

Anyway I came to the conclusion that something had to drop. Since I've kinda gotten attached to Squeak (Even though he can be a little bitch...), and I'm clearly not going to stop obsessively facebook stalking people, so out of the legit chunks of my life occupying my time (school, work, internship) work is the only one I can cut out.

I don't like this option for several reasons. I like having money, I have a little and I'd like more of it. I LOVE 95% of my customers (especially the ones who read this blog!) and I love my coworkers even more...It's just absolutely the only thing I can drop. I could financially handle quitting altogether but I'm not ready to do that yet, I just need a break. I want to love coming to work and I'm starting to lose that.

And I'm starting to lose my sanity. As entertaining as it is to break down into a smoldering pile of emotional vomit, I think I'll retain what semblance of mental stability. Soooo you'll see me donning a green apron around March.

How apropos. :)

Anyway! Today was a day filled with absolutely nothing...well, it was filled with reading, Glee, ordering books and this:

 It should be noted that this was at 10AM

There was a lot of Arrested Development too, I was supposed to spend the day doing these things on a boat, but apparently the boat was not up to snuff for a classy lady such as me. Oh well, hopefully I'll have my laztboatventure soon.

Oh, this happened today too. Turns out Squeak really likes rolling my DVD remote around on the floorton. He did this for a solid 20 minutes...

I thought I was done fighting for the remote...

He quickly got distracted by some dried bananas...

Hey look, fruit!!